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i just wish that all my friends could have 1 day go perfectly for them, some weekends its absolutely amazing, but like during the week everyone seems so sad/angry about something, i know how that feels i used to be like that every day like 2 years ago, but eventually i gave up on a lot of things, i just try to have fun with what im doing, and im glad that some people say i make their day better :D! i like making people happy, i never thought that i would enjoy it so much
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Feb. 17th, 2005 @ 10:56 am
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wow me and alisha lasted for like a day, but me and her are still friends and i still love her bunches, been playing daoc for the past 2 days, cuz we have had a cluster with galahad... and man most of those guys are gimp, but a few guilds and soloers are fucking brutal, as of kayla im not sure what to think about her... i will always forgive her no matter what she does, becuz id rather deal with her defaults then to have someone who is better in every possible way
to all you ppl, love is and will always be 1 sided... dont ever expect to find a mutual love... as one of my old friends had told me his thoughts "Humans cannot truely love each other, love is just 2 ppl using each other and expecting them not to use anyone else." <-- Dutter *wasnt exaclty those words but thats sum what close to it*Current Mood:  IDK confused Current Music: Make War - Bright Eyes |
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ya im not single anymore ;p
her name is Alisha and she is fucking awsome and i love her to death :)
as of the past few days talking to trevor about his infiltrator, and talking to jake about his template, finished my template just gotta level my artifacts :PCurrent Mood:  happy and complete Current Music: Falling Without A Parachute - Senses Fail |
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Jan. 31st, 2005 @ 11:41 am
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why do ppl have birthdays, and why do ppl make things seem so great... i really hate it when they do that expescially to me... i dont have to many great moments in life, my greatest moment lately was in DAoC... :\ and that wasnt that great i soloed 3 ppl... wow... :\ i still suck pretty bad at it, but idk just dont tell me your gonna do something and then dont do it :'( *amanda and kayla*
ive been really fucking miserable lately and its cuz of LOVE, becuz i love kayla and i want to be with her... its retarted i know... how can you love someone so much but they dont even show effection towards you :'(
and i dont think im going to winter carnival partially cuz i dont want to wear a tux or any gay shit like that. i might talk to jerek and see if he can hook me up with some clothes :P
Jan. 24th, 2005 @ 11:26 am
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this weekend wasnt that bad friday, hanged out at the mall with samantha, brittany, chelsea, and malissa... well and frog :P saturday was malissa's birthday so nothing really happened just talked to kayla tried to make plans but nothing really happened... sunday i went to the mall with kayla, so it was just me and kayla and we went to hollister and she made me try on some clothes, and then we went to Marshal Fields and she tried on a dress, becuz she wanted to, and on friday i stayed the night at pats house cuz it was his birthday and on saturday his mom kept making pizza
over all this weekend wasnt that bad :p
Jan. 17th, 2005 @ 11:03 am
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lately has been so awkward and hard for me, like i've endured so much shit and sucked up so much stupid shit that i didnt have to go thru... like kayla seems to always want me to hang out with her and kyle, but i dont get it... seriously its fun an all, but i just feel so alone when im with them, and its twice as bad when its like kayla, kyle, amanda, and keith then me ya that makes me feel really there i feel so cold and alone at those times
i just dont know anymore
im sick of being alone.... and only one person has been able to help me with this at all and thats frog *thx for keeping me alive*
Jan. 12th, 2005 @ 09:55 pm
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my birthday weekend was one of the worse ive have ever had, i did see alot of 1 of the ppl i love the most, but she doesnt like to cuddle with me or anything so i missed out on that, all i got my birthday was a check for $20, and lunch at Old Country Buffet... i didnt get to see Tasha :( and if frog hadn't came and picked me up at my house im sure i would of just sat around my house until i fell asleep seems i've been doing that lately... even tho amanda and kayla said "were planning a great party for aaron's birthday. i cant wait. he deserves something wonderful for once on his birthday." but i didnt even have a party... i already ate all my cake from my mom, and i got like 1 slice of banana split pie left *it is very tasty*
idk anymore, i like tasha alot but she lives in altoona thats like the only problem... so the only time i could see her is on the weekends and those plans to see each other could easly get fucked over if she cant spend the night at kayla's or if kayla cant/doesnt spend the night at her house... idk i feel like kayla is slipping away from being my friend just something seems to be seprating us and its really starting to tear my heart to pieces... what would i do with out kayla... my life would go down the drain completely... i love her more then i have ever loved anyone else... i love her more then i love myself but something just keeps pushing her away :( and if we do end up not being so close anymore im gonna be so depressed... i can tell im gonna lose her if/when kyle and her are offical... just thinking about it makes me want to leave and never come back
im just so out of it lately and i dont know how to make myself feel better... :'(
Dein Glück
ist nicht mein Glück
ist mein Unglück
which means
Your happiness
is not my happiness
it is my misery
Jan. 10th, 2005 @ 11:16 am
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some people wear happy faces cuz they dont want to make others sad, or dont want to be asked the question WHATS WRONG? well i put it on so no one knows that i am sad, or angry ~~~~~~~ dont really have anything to say :\
Jan. 4th, 2005 @ 10:44 am
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yay my cousin is suppose to come to WI this year for x-mas *does the happy go lucky dancing panda dance* and then im gonna be like rawr :) and all hyper go giddy person again :P ...
dont worry young girl i will always love ya, -you know who you are....
well anyways im in the library, getting ready to plan my weekend and see whats up with some ppl, maybe hang out at "the tuura residence" and call up the trevorian, see if he wants to chill with me and my grizzly bear "jake tuura"
hopefully this weekend wont be so bad :(
Dec. 10th, 2004 @ 11:22 am
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Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"
January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking andproductive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious.
Take the quiz: "What kind of eyes do you have?"
Bloody Tears
your have bloody teared eyes. You eyes have seen much pain, either your pain or a friends pain. You cry with them, and for them. They are someone that has been there for you, no matter the situation, and you hate to see that person get put down, or talked about. Your a good friend to stay by their side and cry for them. But yourself you only cry in the darkness of your room, knowing that no one really cares about you, even thought thy really do.....
im addicted to doing quizes like these, kind of makes me think of who i really am when i read the out comes...
Nov. 30th, 2004 @ 11:02 am
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was totally fucking wierd, k tuesday night, me and jake go to wagners to go play pool.. why wagners, cuz its close to our house, and we were biking... so anyways we go there, and what do ya know, kayla, amanda, keith, and kyle were there... i didnt think anything about it, just cuz i wanted to play a game of pool... well apparently amanda and kayla think im stalking them... if i was gonna stalk someone, id stalk someone a lil more respectful well anyways so i got bitched at for that, wednesday i think i just stayed at pats the entire day, thursday *thanksgiving* my mom came and got me from pats house, we went to my g-ma's house, and ate some food, came back home, i waited for pat to get back, so i went to krystals house to see how her thanksgiving went, and she was doing just fine, she was a lil bored tho, i went back to pats house, and played some Ragnarok online there for abit, stayed up most of the night, went to best buy on friday morning at 5:30am and then went to the mall at like 7:00am and i saw Tasha there, she is awsome, (im pretty sure i like her, although im sure she likes someone else which is totally fine with me, she would be a cool friend to have :P) and went back to pats house at like 10:00am finally get back to his house, i zonk out cuz i was worn out, and then wake up at approx 2pm, played some more ragnarok online, went home, and got a ride to nates house, talked to My lil ninja squad *tia, rachael, brenden (sofi, and some other girl i dont know :p)* but they went to some other girls house, so i just chilled with nate by his computer, he was extracting all these files for a game for the ps2 so he could burn it, but that takes a long time, and rachael came home, me and her kept waking up nate, and he was getting pissed, finally she went to sleep, and i left her a note in her room made out of green duck tape ;P finally nate went to bed, and then shortly i went to bed... on saturday Rachael went to libby's b-day party, i went home at approx noon, and i couldnt get my computer from pats house, becuz he was at work -.- so i sat around my house for about 4 hours waiting for someone to get home, finally his mom answered the phone, and i went and got my computer, frog called me up at around 5-6pm, so me, him, nelson, and BEAR all went down to the mall and played some Tekken 5... it is fucking awsome :D, went down to nelsons house talked with them for a bit, then went home, played some DAoC and then zonked out, sunday was extremely boring, slept in till about noon, watched lord of the rings, the return of the king, until about 3 then sat on my computer not really doing anything for the rest of the day... :'( havent really talked to kayla or amanda recently, dont really plan on starting anything with them, cuz all they will prolly do is bitch about the past... so screw it <-- as berry said
Nov. 29th, 2004 @ 11:16 am
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k friday was fun... stayed at wags till about 930, and spent the night at nates house, was pretty fun, saturday didnt go so well... becuz amanda parker, and her "New" fucking crew are being total fucking duesch monkeys to me.... so fuck you all.... cuz i got my old "posse" back... im blazian again, and sunday has not aproached yet, i know Samantha will not be happy about this... and im sure Rachael is gonna wanna choke a bunch of ppl... Lau already wants to beat up Amanda, becuz she is fat was his reason...
well what ever!
Nov. 21st, 2004 @ 12:36 am
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You enjoy life, humor, and being exuberant. Wherever you go you usually find yourself stealing the spotlight without even trying. You love to let go and have fun.
Find out your color at Quiz Me!
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Nov. 19th, 2004 @ 11:18 am
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Have you ever...
[ ]been drunk.
[ ]smoked pot.
[x]kissed a member of the opposite sex.
[x]rode in a taxi.
[x]been dumped.
[x]shoplifted.
[ ]been fired.
[ ]had a job
[x]been in a fist fight.
[ ]snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ]been arrested.
[ ]went on a blind date.
[x]smoked a cigarette.
[ ]gone on an airplane by yourself.
[ ]had sex in a car.
[x]White lied to a friend
[ ]celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans.
[ ]been to europe.
[ ]made out in a movie.
[x]taken caffiene pills.
[x]been to Disneyworld.
[ ]had a crush on someone you hardly knew.
[x]been to california.
[x]regretted something.
[x]skipped school.
[ ]thrown up from drinking.
[ ]lost your sibling.
[ ]kissed a member of the same sex
[x]been in a car accident.
[ ]partied for days and days straight.
[x]had a family member die.
[x]played 'clue'.
[x]had a sleepover party.
[x]went ice skating.
[ ]been cheated on
[x]had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
[ ]had a threesome.
[ ]had a sweet sixteen.
[ ]had a quinceanera.mexicano! tu madre es una puta!
[x]had a car
[x]drove.
Do you...
[ ]have a gf.
[x]have a crush.
[x]have a dog.
[x]have a cat.
[x]have your own room.
[x]play more than one sport.
[ ]watch sports on tv.
[x]have a fav. group/singer/artist.
[x]have more than 1 best friend.
[ ]get good grades
[ ]have slippers.
[x]wear boxers.
[ ]wear black eyeliner.
[x]like the color blue.
[x]like the color yellow.
[ ]like to read.
[ ]like to write.
[ ]have long hair.
[x]have short hair.
[x]have a cell phone.
[ ]have a laptop.
Are you...
[ ]ugly.
[x]pretty.
[ ]ok.
[ ]bored.
[x]happy.
[x]white.
[ ]black.
[ ]mexican/puerto rican.
[ ]asian.
[ ]short
[ ]tall.
[ ]grounded.
[ ]sick.
[x]lazy.
[x]single.
[ ]taken.
[x]looking.
[ ]not looking.
[x]talking to someone
[ ]IMing someone.
[ ]scared to die.
[ ]sleepy.
[ ]annoyed.
[ ]on the phone.
[ ]in your room.
[ ]drinking something.
[ ]eating something.
[ ]in your pjs.
[x]ticklish.
[x]listening to music.
[ ]homophobic.
[ ]racist.
Nov. 19th, 2004 @ 09:12 am
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Not really sure what i want to do, prolly something with kayla tho, or rach, tia, and their few friends if they have plans... other then that im 100% free to do anything!
~~ CAUTION DAOC ~~
well my Savage is lvl 47 and i got around 20 magical scarab wings only 30 more to go then i can get my Golden Scarab Vest, but i still need Bence's Letters 1/3, 2/3, & 3/3 then i can activate my first artifact for my savage, and then i need to get Malice stuff, and prolly SoM stuff :P \
~~ CAUTION DAOC ~~
well im up for just about anything, but im prolly gonna be on a first come first serve, and kayla already wants to do something with me, kyle, and jake, but i dont really want to hang out with jake to much, you can only have to much jake till he gets annoying... and i think kyle is busy, but i will find out what im gonna do with in the week :P
Nov. 16th, 2004 @ 10:47 am
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| » krystal to make me stop crying... |
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today something hit me so hard it just about made me want to go to sleep and never wake up... i told krystal what had happen, and she called me RIGHT AWAY, and talked about it, and she helped me through it... but thanks to krystal i can be happier again and have a better relationship with her
Nov. 14th, 2004 @ 05:10 pm
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well the car i wanted on ebay is now gone :'( im gonna go cry till i die :(
Nov. 14th, 2004 @ 02:21 pm
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it was so much fun we kind of had stack teams right away becuz all the good players were on the same team :p but here is everyone who went: Aaron *myself*, alex, *jake's dad's girlfriend's kid*, Artur, Cody, Dusty, Jim ackerman, kyle k., Nic bast, Tj, and of course kayla went too :)... the first round went by really fast, becuz Nic got shot like right away, and me and TJ got jake, me and TJ prolly would of won it but we both ran out of ammo, second round we went really deep into the forest, and me and alex got lost :P after second round tj had to take off, and he took his gun, so i was gunless, i didnt care cuz i was gonna spend some time with kayla anyways... well me and kayla just talked for abit, i ate some food, kayla wasnt really hungry... sat around the fire for a bit, then had some cake... that lemon cake was INSANE!!! i love it... soon dusty, cody, and artur left, so it was just: me, alex, jim, kyle, kayla, and jake... well me and kyle were jumping over the fire... mind it was a decent size fire, but soon kyle got a phone call and he was gonna get some money to go pick up some girl and drop her off, so he took off with jim, but would return. So me and alex were fucking around, and chasing eachother around the yard, and then kayla took over and started to pinch us unless we were being good boys :) then kayla started to tickle me and id pick her up etc etc, and me and alex would start chasing eachother again :P sooner or later kyle came back and fire was about out, nothing really happened after that, cept kayla's mom came and got her :( and then kyle and jim left, then we left... over all It was alot of fun, Im sure kayla had atleast a lil bit of fun :P
MEMO: let kayla shoot the gun atleast a few times next time :P
Nov. 14th, 2004 @ 10:29 am
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